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Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Remembering Post-Partum Loneliness

Today the boys and I got together with a friend of mine who has a 2 month old baby. We were originally going to meet in a park, but since the weather wasn't cooperating I suggested one of our places. She emailed back that she's going stir crazy and wanted to get out of her house. That was the beginning of my trip down memory lane.

This past year of being a stay at home mom has gone really well for me. While I will go back to school at some point, right now I genuinely enjoy being home and feel like everything is under control, at least as long as I am not in the unfortunate situation of being in the post office with my kids or until 5 pm, which is apparently the witching hour for them. Oh, or at lunch with my kids and a friend in a coffee shop.

While a lot people may have problems going from one to two kids, I had a problem going from zero to one. I remember being bored, tired and lonely. When I felt stir crazy with a newborn, I wanted to go somewhere public with lots of people, but because I had a newborn, I wasn't quite comfortable doing it by myself. Did I mention that I had no idea what I was doing? In fact, one time I tried to cheer myself up by taking my only child (OC back before he was my older son, OS) to a coffee shop where we had gone with my mom when she had been visiting. It had the reverse effect, and I ended up calling up the Big Giraffe crying.

Quickly pulling myself out of that bad memory, I offered my friend the chance to go out in public with "help" by inviting her to meet at a coffee shop. She seemed excited by the suggestion, and we ended up meeting for lunch. That's when I learned that I don't have things under control when at lunch at a coffee shop with my kids.

As I was listening to my friend talk about what it was like for her to be on maternity leave, to not know any other stay at home moms, and to be bored, tired and lonely, I was really glad that my kids were older. Flashbacks of still being in my pjs late in the day with spit up all over me and unbrushed teeth flooded my mind. More images of wanting to meet people so desperately that I fought through my shyness and disregarded the thin layer of nervous sweat to walk into a group of complete strangers and try to start a conversation. No one told me that it was like being back in junior high all over again except this time I had a post-natal belly and was shedding my hair like a golden retriever sitting on a black couch in the spring.

I joined my moms group when OS was three months old and got involved various activities where OS and I got out and met other people. I'll be honest. I signed up for the Music Together class when OS was just 6 months old more for me than for him. I'm not even going to try and pretend on that one. However, even though I already knew people and had made friends before my younger son (YS) was born, I still was bored, tired and lonely because he needed to be constantly fed and put down to nap. I couldn't really go many places. I loved having my babies, and I wouldn't trade those precious memories of snuggling and playing with them, but I enjoy this stage far more. I had heard from so many people that it was so sad when the baby stage was over; you can never get it back. I wish someone had told me that it really does get better. Just please remind me that I said this at 5 pm tomorrow.

A. Elliot's Lesson Learned: Parenting keeps getting better...until 5 pm.

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posted by Alex Elliot @ 7:00 PM   9 comments
9 Comments:
  • At 8/12/2008 10:08 PM, Blogger painted maypole said…

    oh, those first three months. i was really lucky, because 6 weeks in a began rehearals for a play, and so got out by myself nearly every night. but those first few months during the day were really rough. then i decided to try the moms group i had been putting off for 3 months, and wished i had done it sooner. it is always my advice to new moms. get connected with other moms

     
  • At 8/12/2008 10:11 PM, Blogger Heather said…

    I'm such a freak. I loved being able to stay home with my baby...so much so that I quit my job. SHE'S the one who wanted to go places all the time (once she was old enough to express that desire).

     
  • At 8/13/2008 8:38 AM, Blogger Suzanne said…

    I am also enjoying each older age more than I did the infant stage. The isolation, the crying, the sleeplessness, the crying... It was all so much harder than it is now!

     
  • At 8/13/2008 1:24 PM, Blogger Meredith said…

    I had my daughter in February and I didn't want to take her out because it was so cold. I remember thinking, "If I could just go on a walk!" Once she was a little older and the weather warmed up, I felt so much better... I am going to try to have Spring and Summer babies from here out.

     
  • At 8/13/2008 4:28 PM, Blogger skiplovey said…

    Wow I hear you on this one. I keep thinking back to last year when the toddler was a wee babe. Those first few months were so rough. I love the baby phase from a distance. The toddler phase is so much easier for me, I think I'll miss this phase the most.

     
  • At 8/13/2008 4:36 PM, Blogger Kate said…

    Hear, hear. Great post. I totally know what you mean. While it can be sad to think that the newborn stage is over for good and that I will never be pregnant again, never give birth, etc. there is something nice about what lies ahead. And no more newborns crying at 2am will not be missed either! I never claimed to be the type of mom that enjoyed "the newborn stage". Of course my toddler still have issues going to sleep so it's like having a baby still sometimes.

     
  • At 8/13/2008 8:06 PM, Blogger Jen of A2eatwrite said…

    I'm with you on this one. I loved, loved, loved my baby, but I am not a baby person, and things have just become better and better each year. ;-)

    And yes, I'm saying that as the mom of a 15-year-old.

     
  • At 8/15/2008 2:01 PM, Anonymous Suzanne R. said…

    It always amazes me how hard it is to be the parent of a newborn. Just reading your post made me feel claustrophobic. I'm glad that you are not in that situation any longer. I wish I'd understood it better when you were. You learned a lot from being a first time parent, and I definitely learned that a lot of my pre-conceived notions were bullshit. Anyway, definitely glad it's not like that any more. Except at the post office, coffee shop, or at 5 pm. :)

     
  • At 8/24/2008 6:48 PM, Blogger Sally HP said…

    You have another friend with a two month old?! Hook me up!

     
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